Yes, I suck...

...and I'm not afraid to admit it. ;) I apologize for my lack of blogging lately, I just never seem to make the time to do it but figured I'd give it a little attention today since I got off work early for an appointment.

So...what's new? Not much really. I'm still working at CWI and I really like it. I've gotten to know co-workers better and there are some amazing people there. :) I guess eventually I won't just be doing scheduling, I will also be helping with other Registrar tasks like transcripts, which is something I'm much more familiar with from my time at UVU.

My friend Shannon got a job as a "go-go dancer" (hate that term) for a club here in downtown Boise, so I'm usually tagging along with her there on Saturday nights. Honestly the novelty of that place is starting to wear off. The guys who go there are usually kind of scummy, but I really don't go for the guys anyway...I just go to dance, which I've gotten really into since I moved back here. It's good exercise and a lot of fun. I just have to get over my nerves because I usually don't like people looking at me!

And dating. Ahhh, dating. =P I think as of my last update, I had been dating someone. His name was Greg and he turned out to be a bit of a jerk (not to mention possibly gay...that's still being debated!) Anyway, I don't think it was too long after the last blog that he basically dumped me, saying he didn't think that we'd be good in the "long term". I agreed with him, but still didn't like getting a rejection right after the divorce! So since then I haven't really dated anyone in particular. I've joined a dating site a couple of times...yes, the same one. I keep deleting my profile and then rejoining once I get bored. ;) So I've talked to quite a few guys off of there, but no one too special.

It's very weird to be single...especially now that's it's been awhile since Ryan and I separated. I've always been more of a relationship person and I really don't like this dating around thing. I wish I could just find someone I click with and then I could stop all this online dating...not go clubbing so much...just be more of a homebody and enjoy time with that person. Of course it always seems like when you WANT a boyfriend, you never get one so I'm not holding out much hope.

Well, I guess it's time for the big confession. If you are very observant, I've been dropping hints about it since I left Utah. Basically I'm not active in the church anymore. I've had a blog written out since about December explaining why but I've been terrified to post it, worried about all of your reactions. I think for now, I will just leave it at this and if you guys want to hear more of an explanation of why or what my life has been like in that aspect, leave me a comment and I will write about it later. Just know that I am very happy and enjoying my life. No regrets. :)

Hope everyone is doing well!!